Facing It -

"When you face a challenge truly, there is no thought. There is just the looking...you see what needs to be solved at that moment, and that looking is fierce and gentle at the same time. And there is an activation of a greater intelligence than whatever you have learned." -- Eckhart Tolle

That's what it is. Not that I am so brave, just that I am facing the challenge. There is no thought.

When Jacqueline was just turning one, she got a cold. It was the week I was supposed to start my job at Fox. She had a fever, she was snarfy and gooey, and eventually the pediatrician sent me to the ER with her. I was in hyper-drive on the way to the Children's Hospital. That's what happens to me in a crisis. I stop thinking about it and start acting on it. That was the first time I can remember being strong. Surprisingly strong. It's sort of a way to protect myself from the fear. And the same thing happened this Spring. Once I had something to do I was less afraid, I could stop thinking and just be "on assignment". My brain was activated and I acted smarter than I knew I was. And that quote (from Oprah) sums it up.